Said PC is back at my desk, although less than happy. For some reason, it looks as though the display of all the open programs are enormous-considering I am not a large icon kind of gal, this is enormously frustrating.
That, and although I thought I was dedicated in my pursuit of backing up all my files in several locations so that I would not lose them, I forgot to back up all of my Internet locations, so they are all gone...
It has been an interesting day. Am still in bits about D moving-some moments the rage and pain I feel are so great that I have to just put my head down until it passes-my therapist this morning went over it all with me. Yes, that's right. I am in the league of the masses, and I see a therapist. Guess it seems like the only logical step in my life. I wonder what the next bourgeois step I can take will be. Perhaps botox or a face lift, but since I am still in the under-30 bracket, I don't see that is necessary for a while.
So my therapist made me feel better about a lot. She helped me see that I am not losing a friend...I am just losing a local friend. Whatever, it still looks pathetic in print, but at least it helped raise the mood bar a bit. And anything to help keep me away from the hot oven rack is a plus.
I leave tomorrow for along weekend in Wales, so this space will be quiet for a bit. I am going to just relax, unwind, and see if I can find the bits of my soul that seem to have scattered to the winds. Maybe they will even return. I worry that I will like it there too much-there is no chance to move right now, no way forward unless I do some busting of some molds.
Then again, I was never one for dealing with unhappy situations well.
-H
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