I have much planned for today-first I am going to haul my ass off to the gym (bikini season is upon us!) then my iPod, the book I bought on recommendation from Simon, and myself are going to sit outside in the park and soak up every inch of sun that my body can get in contact with.
But I was thinking about something, and an email from someone triggered an idea. I haven't re-capped my life from this blog for a long time, so perhaps I should do.
-I am a 30-year-old American living and working in England, who came here by way of Sweden, where I worked for 4 and a half years.
-I have two ex-husbands, one of whom I don't talk about, and one of whom I do. I'm like Ross without the penis and the dinosaur jokes, I guess. The second husband (who I call X Partner Unit), ironically, hurts more than the first. Actually, that breakup just hurts, full stop.
-The first great love of my life was a man named Kim. We were together for 4 years, and then we weren't. I always knew we would be back together again-for surely, that's what love is about, right?-but then he intervened with our plans, by dying on me.
-I am on Life Number 6. The first 5 lives I have lived since April 1, 1974, are all radically different and equally important to me.
-I lost my job from Company X in Sweden on November 19, 2003. It was one of the worst days of my life, which kicked off the worst period of my life. I have a new job, which I call Dream Job.
-I started this blog as cheap therapy, as one year ago I tried to kill myself.
-I am with a wonderful man, one who makes me happy (and has the potential to make me utterly miserable, too). I call him Mr. Y. And I can't live without him.
-Half of my family lives in Dallas, the other half live in Seattle. And the Dallas Stars, despite what you may think from the play-offs, are the best hockey team in the whole wide world.
-I am very confused, I have a lot of issues (the search string for that one would bring my site down!) and I am just trying to figure out who I am and what I am all about.
In the meantime, I blog. And I love it. And I hope you do, too.
-H.
H,
Your life seems infinitely happier than when I first found my way here. Your loyal fans couldn't be happier for you!
I do hope you keep blogging for a long time to come, little flame. How else would I start my mornings?
Posted by: Paul at April 26, 2004 01:11 PMI love your blog :)
Sorry dear, but the Stars suck. Ahem, despite what you may thing from the play-offs...the Canucks are the best hockey team in the whole wide world. Muwahahahahaha!
Posted by: Laura at April 25, 2004 11:38 PMThanks for the recap. but the project continues :-)
Really, I have no life...
Posted by: Easy at April 25, 2004 10:13 PMConfused with issues huh? So what makes you any different that the rest of us?
The Cliffs Notes rock... as do the San Jose Sharx. :) Same boat re:Stars playoff performance. :|
Cheers.
Posted by: Curator at April 25, 2004 09:47 PMi do! i love it! keep writing dear girl. you're giving us all cheap therapy. :-)
Posted by: kat at April 25, 2004 07:42 PMWow. So much has happened to you in your 30 years. You seem to be a strong woman. You're an inspiration. And for putting it so well in words. You have a gift. Takecare and Godbless.
Posted by: Vikkicar at April 25, 2004 05:07 PMAh, just how long can "bikini season" last in the UK? days? weeks? =)
Posted by: Dane at April 25, 2004 03:35 PMH. -- You mean so much to so many, myself included. For over 3 months now I have read 3 blogs faithfully each day, yours being one of them. While I have added more each day to my list of "have to reads", yours will always continue to be in my top 3.
PS> It is always your place to comment on my blog (good or bad, I am old I can take it) and in the lives of me and my family. Whether you like it or not we have adopted you! :) Just some thoughts from an old........
Hi Helen - I love your blog. This is my first time commenting on it. But the Stars are the best? Ha ha ha ha
Go Wings!
Posted by: Hockey at April 24, 2004 05:34 PMIt sounds like this blog has helped you a great deal and you certainly seem to enjoy it. For what it's worth, I enjoy reading it, as I'm sure we all do. And if this helps you comes to terms with your life and yourself whilst you're having fun with it, then all the better. I mean I think counselling helps me (you see, all of us internet people are messed up freaks with issues), but I certainly don't enjoy it, so perhaps on balance blogging is actually better.
Posted by: Ollie at April 24, 2004 12:18 PMBeyond a doubt. Love it. :D
Posted by: pam at April 24, 2004 12:11 PMwow.
I'm glad you love your blog. I do. I love yours. I love mine too.
And I know just what you mean about blogging being cheap therapy. I had to give up my counsellor, I couldn't afford her. My blog is way cheaper!
Christ, Helen. Just Christ. I didn't know that had happened to you.
But I can tell you--and meaning no disrespect against her--what I think the difference between you and Layne is: You've set boundaries. May she be able to herself one day as well.
But you, you go and get all you can get out of life #6.
Posted by: ilyka at April 24, 2004 09:58 AM